| 27102014 | * Dinner at Slug & Lettuce w/Course Mates.

Skipped the not-so-important English class today.

Spent half of my day hiding in my own room to brainstorm how to do my assignment.

I woke up at 9am, had pasta as my breakfast. 

Then, do my laundry.

It's windy out there, but the wind is hot.

And then, back to my room and watch a few short episode of drama.

Still never have the motivation to start my assignment.

Till about 1pm, I finally continue my assignment.

Did some research and jot down the points. 

Then finally, I start writing the essay.

Although it's not very rush yet, but I dont feel good to do it last minute.

And also, an assignment without any guideline, it's killing me seriously.

I am lost.

And if you email the lecturer, he will never ever reply you,

when you consult him, he talk to you and he split his saliva to you.

OMG I feel so disgusting :(

Half way, about 230pm, skype with my boyfeee and we do our own assignment.

We always do that, on the skype but doing our own assignment.

If there is any question or dont understand, we will ask each other or share screen to discuss.

Thank you my love, to accompany me when I'm really stress out. 

Thank you my love, to give me opinion when I ask you about my assignment questions.

I feel you, like you are really sitting in front of me doing assignment together.

Just like usually what we do in Malaysia, always hang out to coffee shop to do assignment together.

Yeaaaa that's the motivation of staying concentrate and not watch drama or do something else.

Nearly 6pm, me and my course mates had dinner together in Quayside - Slug and Lettuce

This is the first time we hang out together.
Too bad, we have to sit separately due to the promotion every Monday, 50% for all foods and it is a fine dine restaurant.
Therefore it's a bit pack in the restaurant and not much tables. So we sit separately.
I only spent 6 pounds for my Grilled Salmon, it's very cheap for such fine foods.








- Grilled Salmon


- Garlic and Lemon Chicken Breast


- Beef Rib






- My Hong Kong friends.

- Laris, Shin, me and Payton.

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After dinner, we have a short walk at Quayside and take a lot of pictures and selfie with the Millennium bridge. After that we back to our own accommodation.

- KeeLin, Payton, Shin, me and Sandra.

Home sweet home!

Loves,

kellyetan.

| 23102014 | * My Unclear Future.

It's almost 2 months staying outside of Malaysia without my family, boyfriend and close friends around. Still not used to it. What I do everyday is go to the class, and go home, do my exercise, skype with my boyfriend, and recently assignment has come to me and start doing assignment in my room. Although me and my boyfriend didnt chat a lot, didnt talk a lot, we both were busy with our assignment, but we just leave our skype on. Whenever we feel tired, just peek at him.

Didnt hang out a lot in here, cause I know once I go out, I will take my wallet out and get something. Although I have nothing to get but still, I will just get ANYTHING. And things here aren't cheap you know. Dont play play!

But will hang around at the Quayside for a walk, or sometimes get drinks and drink at friend's accommodation or my accommodation, chat around. In Chinese people said: "在家靠父母，出外靠朋友" which means you rely on your parents when you're at home, whereas you rely on your friends when you're out from your house. So, yea.. We'll just help each other, cheer each other no matter how. Well, yea, I miss home :'(

My sister wish that I could go back for her wedding, and my mum, at first she told me dont have to go back but now, she asked me to go back. I really dont know how to choose. I wish to go back, because that's my sister's wedding. I dont wish to go back, because I know when I leave them, I will sadly cry again. I really cannot take it since last 2 months, I will never forget that pain, that hurt, that feeling that left my love ones. I still remember, few days before I depart, I cry every night. I can simply cry suddenly, randomly. On the day I depart, I cry most of my day. I really cant take it. That's the reason why I dont wish to go back. Maybe when I back to Malaysia, I dont wanna come back anymore. I really cant live my love ones just like that, I will be so so sad. But on the other hand, I knew my sister wish that I could go back. How? It's really difficult for me to make decision. 

I always look at my countdown app on my phone, counting the number of days left that I could go back to Malaysia and meet my family, dog, boyfriend, friends, to have steamboat every week and so on. But another thing is, when the time I got back to Malaysia, it's time to look for job. And here starts the reality world. We still see reality now, but it's just part of it. I believe that once we were out to working industry, that's what REALITY starts. Everything will be your real internship, you real assignment, maybe with a strict "lecturer" with a tight "duration" to finish up your work. So worry and I find my future still in a blur picture, I cant see my future yet. Sweat =.=0

Let's see what happen in coming half year, see what UK transform me into? Hahah, that's all for my update :D

Xoxo,

kellyetan

| 14102014 | * Unexpected.

Hi people, I have nothing much to update, because I'm doing the same thing like everyday.

My daily routine is just wake up, breakfast, class, lunch, do assignment/watch drama, dinner, sleep.

It repeats everyday, just to save up money and try not to spend money outside.

One thing is, when they have Halloween event, I try to attend because I wanna feel their culture here. Just because I'm only staying for a year here. I wanna make use of their every season, spring, winter, autumn and summer. 

I was actually plan with one of my flatmate to spend our Christmas in London,

it much be very happening. But the sad thing is, I never expect my mom never allow me to London. But its just 3 hours of train to the destination, and I have been there. So yes, I am mad, like seriously. Everyone here is going somewhere to spend their Christmas, why would I staying at home alone? I am here in the UK, if I come here just for my study, I would rather stay in Malaysia. At least, I'm not spending Christmas like a loner. At least, I'm not letting my parents worry about me. At least, I'm not left my friends, family and boyfriend behind. I would probably happier than I spend my Christmas alone here.

I really started to confuse and I dont know what my mom is thinking, I really mad and never expect that she cant allow me to London. And she asked me why am I become like that. For me, that sentence is like judging my personality. Why did she mean that? What did she mean that why am I becoming like that? I thought that would never be a matter, except for worry. I am already here, so I am more easily to go here and there to explore more. Isn't it? If worry, why am I here to let her worry me for a year? If worry, why not keep me stay in Malaysia? I am here only for study, not travel. Is that mean that I can come here once I have complete my degree and back to Malaysia and travel here again? I thought I should take the opportunity to explore it now, right timing. I thought I should be more independent in here since I am here, alone in oversea. I know that I come here for my studies, but its Christmas, and I will be having a winter break at that moment. What should I do? Like really stay in my accommodation?

I;m really mad, sad and disappoint.

I know end up I will still spend my Christmas in London. No matter who persuade her, or if she doesnt allow, I will still be there anyway. But what I sad is because of the judgement of personality. Its like telling me I've changed to a different person who makes her worry of me all the time. Did I? I already did everything fine and I really know to take care myself. 

Blogged,

kellyetan.

| R4ND0M | * Week 3 Updates.

Hey ya!

It's been a few weeks staying in Newcastle, UK.

I started to get home sick :'(

I started to miss my home, my bed, my parents, my friends and my dog.

And also,

I started my class last week.

I found that it's kinda okay, I still can handle it, I guess?

The photo above is a very nice view from my university - Northumbria University.

The weather is kinda cold, colder than London, especially when there's wind blowing towards your face, you feel so cold!

And also, the lecturers given a few assessment to us already.

Although I'm taking only 3 subjects. But the assignment is extremely crazy.

Its either 2 assignment with 40 and 60 marks, or it will be only 1 assignment for 100 marks.

Seriously, I dont know how to do it.

I started to feel stress, my English speaking and grammar is bad here.

I dont really talk, because I was kinda shy and afraid of my mistakes.

But I promise, I will be strong and be more independent here.

In my flat, sometimes we will have dinner together with flat mates. 

But sometimes, we will cook our own food.

Yeap, It depends.

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I will be here, searching for my dreams.

I believe that I could handle all the chaos comes to me and I believe I could manage my time and all the things very well.

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Actually, I kinda know what I want, in my future, I know what I wanna be.

But for current, I don't think I can make it.

Everyone have a dream, am I right?

Perhaps I'm not passionate enough to chase on my dream.

But I will put more effort once I back in Malaysia!

Cheers.

Goodbye, see you soon!

Love,

Kellye.

| 14092014 | * How Are You?

Hellow :3

How are you?

I am doing fine in Newcastle, UK right now.

What have I been doing?

That's later. 

First, let me thanks to few people who sent me off at the airport.

Thanks to my beloved ling ling.

Thanks to my beloved Lin Lin.

Thanks to my beloved Ming Ming.

Thanks to my beloved Dabez Sha Sha.

Thanks to my beloved Boy KJ.

Truly, thanks to all of you.

I am also thanks to people who wanted to send me off, but due to the reason that I know I couldn't handle that separating situation, I will cry a lot, and I rejected. I am sorry, but I am really feeling thankful. Thanks to friends who gave me present/gifts before I leave. Scarf that can let me bring along to UK and use it when Im cold, photo album that mean a lot to me, and words, every sentence mean a lot to me. Thank you, people.

Thank you for sending me off even though you were packed and squeeze behind the seat.

Sorry for leaving for a year and thank you for your understanding and loving me so much.

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Reached London at 6th of September 2014.

I managed to explore a few places such as

BIG BEN

BUCKINGHAM PALACE

NATURAL HISTORY MUSEUM

PARK

ARSENAL FOOTBALL FIELD

LONDON BRIDGE

ZOO

STARBUCKS 

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And then, on the 10th of September 2014, we moved to...

LIBERTY QUAY!

which is where I am staying right now until the end of the year.

Then, I go and buy my stuffs such as the pillow, duvet, fan, kettle and many more.

BIG THANKS to leng luii - LI YING a.k.a my opposite room/flatmate/neighbor teach me this and that, go to the city with me and help me carry stuffs.

TADAA, Rashiqah, leng luii and me.

And the very fail enrolment day since its a very long queue so we did give up.

The photo below is showing how excited I am while waiting to enrol.

Besides, we were also invited to attend to a party and get to know more friends there.

And, when there is a leader dancing ZUMBA, everybody follow, me too.

This is cool.

The rest of the time, I stayed in my hostel.

Drink tea/watch drama/Clash of Clans/Chatting/Cooking/Bitching

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And so, I'm here now, with all my flatemates.

Thank you my dearest sister.

Take care.

Loves,

Kellye.