▪ how i feel.

he gave me back my library card.

he gave me back my name tag.

i turn away,

looking the car mirror, at you.

and my tears starts falling.

you know how i feel actually,

you know i am acting strong, dont you?

yes you know.

i know that you actually know.

i scare.

i scare i will hug you in a sudden.

but luckily your friend safe you.

because he's in the car.

finally i see you,

finally i meet you,

but i cant even touch you,

and i cant even feel you.

because you're not mine.

how long i didnt see your car stop in front of my house.

how long i didnt talk to you face to face.

how long you didnt pass something to me with your pretty hand.

today i get it.

but there is no more chance.

because i had nothing left at your house and with you.

there is a distance between us, now.

i close my eye,

and there's flashback, a lot.

at first i though that is easy,

that is nothing.

after that i realise,

that is not easy but actually is so difficult and hard.

my heart broke.

i dont know should i still believe anyone if they do the same thing.

i dont know.

):

i am very confuse.

but you do not care.

cause you wont know.

放下不是一件容易的事，

我爱你。

- by kellye tan