我的心声 *\\31.10.2008//*

今天没有去学校，
中五的学生毕业噜…
简单来说就是我的dear毕业了…
怎么办呢？
明年的日子该怎么过呢？
想念他，已经够惨了。
没得见他，更是要我的命？

无论如何，
在这里祝他们事事顺利，考试顺利！
有缘再见咯！
=]

约12时左右，
我去学校啦！
去那里干嘛呢？
LM 噜…
都是 LM 的啦~
呵呵…

在 duty 的时候，
不怎么开心喏…
就是就是就是放不下嘛！
想怎样喔…
唉~
最不开心的是…
为什么当我闲着的时候，
他们总是对着我们笑笑？
为什么？
朋友？
我懂啊！
可是我就是不喜欢这样…
可不可以好像以前这样？
当我闲着的时候，
Committee骂我？
他们对着我笑的时候，
我就是很辛苦…
我不懂我要笑还是什么…
我不懂我该露出什么表情…
我应该当作朋友之间的笑？
还是 committee 和 ahli 之间的微笑？
为什么他们就是不能当作我是普通的member来骂我？
这样我应该不会那么难受…

感觉上，
我不被人发现…
好像偷偷摸摸的来到这世上，
透明的…
只是偶尔隐隐约约的被人家看见…
甚至可以当作看不见我…
我就这么难在学校立足？
这么难和人相处？
这么难和人合作？

可能有一天，
我突然间消失了，
也没有人会在乎…
真的对我自己，
没有自信了，
感觉上好像多余的。
总是一个人，
被抛弃…

如果上天给我一个愿望，
我只希望我回到以前的学校，
过正常学校的生活，
有朋友，有快乐，有说，有笑…
现在？
朋友？真正好的只有几个，
快乐？偶尔有啦~
说？笑？有~有有有有有…
那又怎样？

有时候，
人缘不好，
就是什么都没有。
人不美，
就是什么都没有。
皮肤黑，
就是什么都没有。
可是人类往往不会说出真相，
他们只会用着虚伪的心来安慰你，
其实是在背后踩你…

这些，
都是大众人类的特征。
他们的借口总是没关系啦…
他们不会欣赏你啦…
他们的损失啦…
不能合作啦…
等等等等等等……~
很多垃圾借口…

不懂，
该怎么说…
就是讨厌…


-by kellye tan

My Today *\\30.10.2008//*

have to return all the text book today.
so must go to sch.
if not my form teacher will call parents.
phewz.
luckily i went school.
xD

found my moral text book back from see hui class.
i think is mathieu get my book wrongly.
so i dont have to buy a new one and return back to the school.
phewx.

after school,
got tuition nor of course.
feel sleepy.
but i still can listen everything.
not bad.
feel that im so so guaii luii.
aaha!

after tuition then back lur.
then eat with sister.
then buy hp!!
dang dang dang dang!!!
sony ericsson K800i..!!
i know abit old lar.
but price kinda cheapppp!!
and nice to use mar.
buy new phone de ppl very waste de nor.
will drop price.
then can know the function from everyone.

so my conclusion is,
buy old phone is good.
xD
alrightttttt,
very very happieee.
my first sony ericsson phone.
must protect nicely.
:)

then went pasar malam,
called aisha tot today can meet but fail.
:(
but i meet kok jun and joshua.
xD
already puas hati.
hahah.
at least they remember me mar..
hahah.
already very very puas hati.
xD

miss them lots.
love them lots too.
hope to see them again.
:)
take care friends.
love yaaaa!!


- by kellye tan

My Today *\\29.10.2008//*

phewx.
went The Gardens Redbox with amanda and see hui.
RM 10++ [ expensive than sunway RM3 ]
2 plates of nuts cost RM 8++.
so its around RM 16++
then Hi Tea Buffet RM 10++ again.
but i eat salad only.
==0

not bad lur.
quite big and comfort inside there.
cause everything's new.
xD
worker also new.
hahah.

after that,
brother fetch us back lu.
of coz fetch my friends back too.
=p
actually today buy hp,
but then brother duwan fetch me back shop.
maybe he tired guar.
so tmr only buy lur.
=]

back home,
alone again.
brother go for gym.
sister go find boy boy.
what i eat?
maggie mee~~
haihs.
pity me. :'(

late at nite,
prepare everything for sch tmr.
=]





- the food...~



- this is not egg!! its cupcake paper lar weih~ xD



- rubbish~







- sing sing sing sing sing sing sing sing.... xD



- take take take take take take take...~ xD



- take take take take take take..~



- take take take take take take..~



- and become this! dang dang!! xD



- i love this. xD [edited by amanda]



- kell and see hui. =]



- kell and amanda. =]





- kell, amanda and see hui. =D



- ME ME! xD























- no spec better hor? xD but its okay lar. change style mar. xD





- in The Gardens toilet. xD



- muackxz!! <3


- by kellye tan

My Today *\\28.10.2008//*

woke up at 12.30pm today.
then went shop and work today.
bored bored.

open letter.
pick up phone.
what else?
blogging, sms+ing, and msn+ing.
xD

actually going sunway with the LM members but then change date liao.
so then going with amanda luu.
but then too last minute only decide.
so we're not going.

tmr maybe going mid valley with see hui ba?
not sure yet.

Dhmmm.
today dear's going to his uncle house over nite.
have to miss him more than that.
cause no phone allow.
=[
not no phone allow lar.
hmm.
just cant call but only sms.
phewx.

miss dear,
love dear.
mwahxs.
<3


-by kellye tan

My Today *\\27.10.2008//*

alright.
i woke up late today.
around 3pm.
Zzzz.
xD

i sleep sofa,
heard something gossip.
but kinda gek sum when heard.
*shhh**

nite,
went dinner with family.
at somewhere.
aaha~
then back home and watch movie.
like that lu.

besides,
we meeting about something something.
meeting until i also no mood.
until 3am also cant sleep.
then went mum's room keng gaii with her.
then only go back room oioi lu..
kinda hurt,
kinda gek sum.

hope that he/she will change.
=]

i miss my dear.
miss him.
miss him lots.
mwahx.



- by kellye tan

♥ You promised me

● ● ● PROMISE ME ● ● ●

-YOU-
TanJeeSeng


PROMISED


-ME-
KellyeTan


START FROM


Today
26.10.2008

Now
01.45a.m (midnight)

♥ you wont dump me.
♥ you wont leave me.
♥ you only love me.

you had promised me today.
:)

of course,
i'll do the same thing.
promise you too.
mwahhhxx ♥


-by kellye tan

My Today *\\24.10.2008//*

went school today.
early in the morning scolded by baba.
cause sleep late.
missed bus.
first time so fierce to me.
*sobss*

feel that i'm not anything in this world anymore.
:'(

do nothing at school.
so i prefer not to come.
but need to change moral project thingy.
so i have to come.

after school,
mum mum with dear and amanda.
then dear back dee.
we went ttc to do nothing also.
then went mid valley to meet up teck seang and ivan.
eat sushi.

then we went jusco buy some foods.
so we late for history tuition.
puiyi's alone.
=[

after tuition.
amanda's mum fetch me back shop.
they went my shop buy something also.
=]

after all,
sister went tesco with me.
i buy my things.
we have our dinner there.
sushi king.
sushi again..
xD
often eat sushi nowadays.

i'm so so hungry.
i order the set der.
got one bowl of noodles and one plate of rice.
i ate all.
and so clean.
then went home lurr.

- by kellye tan

* Hurts baby *

You dont have to care me.

I have to be quite.

-ALONE-

Say you dont love me anymore if you do.

Just leave me if you do.

Dont have to choose the way you treat me now.

You'll just make me feel im so so useless.

If you dont love me anymore,

straight away hurt me badly.

if a boy love a girl, he wont say dont know when she ask him that will he leave her.

* the sadness was hidden in my heart, deeply.*

- by kellye tan

My Today *\\21.10.2008//*

having seni exam today.
dont know what am i drawing.
dear dear didnt go school today,
i miss him badly.
=[

after school,
saw dear for a while only,
maybe only about 1 minute.
sobss.
=[

then sit annice's car went sunway with amanda.
have lunch at sakae sushi.
[PK man!]
then annice went for skate lur.
me and amanda went popular and asia avanue walk walk.
after that we went to redbox.

actually ask hou yan, mun mun, jared and siang sheng der.
but mun mun got tuition, hou yan dont have shirt.
jared and siang sheng still having exam.
so..
me and amanda go lur.

2 of us sing.......
until no more oxygen left.
*dead**
and of course my aloe vera special safe me.
xD
*yummy yummy**

around 8 something,
amanda's mum fetch me back shop.
=]


-by kellye tan

My Today *\\20.10.2008//*

crazy day.
never sleep for whole day.
think craps.
maybe yesterday sleep too long during evening.

went school and had duty today.
i give myself 75 marks.
:)
i feel that i done very well for this time duty.
even i never sleep,
even i have no energy,
i tried my best.
=]
*clap clapppss**

what a hot day,
DK's air cond not cold.
Hot til dead.
they only on 2 air cond.
but still damn hot man!

after that,
went class and rest.
i could not sleep because it's so hot and i'm sticky but just closed my eye and rest.

phews,
fail torecess with dear again.
they have taklimat.
:(
i just dreaming in the class and wait for my maths exam.
didnt revision at all.
Haihs,
too bad.
:'(

after school,
dear didnt stay back.
then we dont have tuition.
but amanda and see hui got.
amanda went old town but we didnt follow.
i also very tired.
i msg my brother ask him fetch me early lu.
then i chat with see hui.

around 3.30pm,
brother fetch me from ttc.
in car,
i sleeeeeep.
back home.
wash my hands and leg.
of course my face.
and sleeeeeeep.

Phews.
so so tired baybeh.


- by kellye tan

My Today *\\19.10.2008//*

went out for BREAKFAST at around 1pm today,
with brother, brother's girl, mother, grandmother and cousin brother.

Have a delicious meal,
me and my cousin talk crap.

after that,
went back home and sleep at around 4pm until 8.30pm.
actually going pasar with mami but i sleep like pig.
^@^

woke up,
talk some serious stuff with dear.
then have my dinner again.
after all,
went bed and sleep.
[ what a lame day.. ]


- Dear, I MISS YOU ♥

-by kellye tan

My Today *\\18.10.2008//*

哇~
好好吃啊！
xD
妈咪很久没有亲自下厨了，
今天她重出江湖啦！
高兴到…
因为她烹饪的食物总是最好吃的！

今天她煮什么呢？
炒饭呐~
香香的，
热热的，
好吃啊~
吃了一碗又一碗…
实在是…
太美味啦~~
谢谢妈咪！
xD





- 虽然外表不是很好看，可是确实是很美味的哦！




- by kellye tan

My Today *\\17.10.2008//*

today is kell kell and dear dear der 6th month anniversary!!
=]

half year liao.
teehee.
=D
althought didnt celebrate anything,
but my heart still with you.
=]

Muackz.
love dear.
6th month anniversary.
♥ Lovesss ♥


-by kellye tan

My Today *\\16.10.2008//*

today went mid valley with amanda.
eat sushi again.
cause last day liao.
so i must eat!
xD

after sushi,
went back ttc and tuition lur.
amanda didnt tuition econs today.
so im alone.
walao.
econs chapter one already very hard.
i also dont know the following chapter i'll how.
haihs.

after that,
following,
science tuition.
see hui, puiyi and amanda.
its time to tuition le lu.
xD
then we tuition together lur.

then,
back lur.
i went back shop and bring my nokia 7610 to repair.
last time liao.
next time wont bring there repair liao.
feel that fool by them.
i dont like that shop.
=[

after that went Caring Pharmacy buy ulcer jelly lur.
stupiid.
got 3 ulcer.
* ouchh **

actually only one ulcer,
deno why that not not careful bite myself.
=[
then got another 2 again.
sooo bad luck.
=[
shit.
hope my ulcer recover soon.
so that i can enjoy my delicious food.
xD

alright now.

i would like to wish my dear.

♥♥ -TANJEESENG- ♥♥

Happy Birthday!!

Stay cute and good health.

SMILE ALWAYS!! [ this is what u you need to improve? xD ]

♥ happy birthday to you ♥

♥ happy birthday to you ♥

♥ happy birthday to honey ♥

♥ happy birthday to you ♥

- i tot i wont ever have chance to eat this. xD

-salmon salmon. xD

- one

- two




- three!!! xD


- by kellye tan

My Today *\\14.10.2008//*

today went sunway with sister.
i mean she fetch me.
xD
cause wanna celebrate dear's birthday.

me and sister went sushi king,
sooo many ppl.
cause got promotion.
we line up lu.
kgai ter and dennis they all in front of me onii.
xD
so ngam der?
we same table with CHS ppl tim.
kgai ter behind me only.
=]
then i saw pei ling and tong went out.
they all also eat there.

more while,
dear reached dee.
he eat some sushi also.
=]
my sister treat him.
birthday ma.
xD
after that she back luu.
and amanda reached also.
then i give present to dear.
dear toooo fat?
xD
or mayb the jacket too small.
hmm hmm hmm..

then we eat eat eat,
then we go buy ticket lu.
2pm,
butterfly love.
then we go for take pics.
i mean the sticker photo.

after that we rush for cinema,
late liao.
already showing.
i watch til very serious.
xD
cause the movie quite nice.
i love it.
=]
at first i tot will be very bored.
wont lar.
so nice man.
=]

after movie,
met up teck seang.
he's with his friend,
ivan and another friend.
then went gasoline mum mum.

dear didnt eat with us.
cause he wanna back liao.
then all the gasoline ppl sang birthday song.
because teck seang know them der.
then all very high geii.
quite fun.
=]

then after food,
went redbox with amanda.
cause teck seang also have to back liao.
redbox there so many helloween thingy.
then me and dada tot wanna eat buffet der.
but then no time.
so next time lur.

around 7pm,
my sister fetch us back lur.






- lalat. xD



- dada. xD





- the whole page also we have to sing. xD



- this is me. xD




- by kellye tan

My Today *\\12.10.2008//*

went Mid Valley with brother and sister today.
cause there will be a Panasonic exhibition.
then we went there play games and get prizes lur.
3 of us won 3 ps of SD Card, 2 gate.
Buahahah..

after that,
we went eat Thai food.
so spicy.
until i cry.
xD
then my brother help me eat,
he also cry.
xD
cause really very very very spicy der.
xD

after that,
we went to the exhibition again.
we answer d quiz,
then won bags and light bulb.
xD
won many many.
=]

then sister went out with her boy dee lur.
they go other place.
left me and my brother.
2 of us shopping.
xD

brother help me choose present for my dear's birthday lur.
we bought jacket.
he help me choose der.
simple and nice.
not bad not bad.
samuel and kevin der.
=]
got discount,
around 51 dollar.
then we went Romp,
buy shirt all that.
i bought one shirt,
and my brother bought one shirt also.
i tot i have to pay myself.
then my brother pay for me.
so goood.
xD

i love the shirt.
=]
and thanks brother.
aaha!





- thai food.



- samuel and kevin.









- gift for him.









- model test. xD



- romp.









- shirt with different type and design.









- wear with different style.



- the price.









- model test again. xD



-by kellye tan